small stone #13

holding #8 steel blue knitting needles, 40 garter stitches, nothing fancy. I'm making a scarf, I'm always making a scarf and it doesn't seem to really matter that I don't have a finished product. That's not why I knit. Right now, it's mostly about bringing my mind into the present moment, staying aware of my breath...breathing in bring right needle under loop on left needle, loop yarn around, over, feel the drag of the wool yarn across my index finger, pull the needle through and voila! another stitch is born...breathing out start again. Keep the yarn just so...not too taught, not too loose...the middle way...keeping the hands busy, the mind occupied, the shoulders down and relaxed, the head tipped slightly down but not strained. I think I love to knit.

Small stone #12

Mental holiday; smiling large
with gratitude and not acting
In haste. Appreciative for
alone time.

small stone #11

alright...earlier today..."noticing properly"...but unable to write about it for hours...one more "don't you remember in our training Mary, these are the things you need to remember Mary, are you still working on that?"...it took every fiber of my being from just packing up my things and leaving. I've spent 8 months with this person and every single button/issue that can be pushed is being pushed. It was interesting to watch myself and feel the intensity of wanting to leave...change...run...quit...there are times when I am willing to recognize the lessons staring me flat in my face and there are the times when I want to say, alright, I believe enough is enough and dear universe, may I please learn these lessons somewhere else, with someone else or better yet, may I simply be done with this lesson now? Thank you kind universe in advance for hearing my request!

Small stone #10

An interior moment with you, mom.
Not always the easiest relationship
And it feels like I can love you
Even more, now, fuller, unconditionally
Now that you dance in the ethers
With Dad.

small stone #9

take down the "likes", and the "comments" and the "followers" and the "friends" and the "twitters"...take it all down and come back to your heart; it's all fresh and new now...can't you see?

smallstone #8

intimate, authentic, unmasked; these are words that occupy my mind today and I contemplate the ways of integrating the actual experience of them into consciousness/being.

small stone #7

what a luxury to have the time to lie in bed and not have to rush somewhere.
what a luxury to feel the suns heat on my face and watch the dog give kitty a bath.
what a luxury to notice it all.