small stone #22

brilliant blueness
cool wind
smooth voice of jazz spreading healing balm over the heart
simple choice, simple joy

small stone #21

Sitting...with discomfort; as it turns out for a good part of the day.
Thinking...I have to be "doing" something on my weekend that has value as these 2 days are so precious and NOT work!
Crankiness, fear, anxiety, low blood sugar?
And now, dusk is here I've eaten and taken the body outside and realized how raw I was and needed to get back home! Grief comes in many disguises and asks quite a lot of one. And now, having given this feeling ample time I think, what a luxury to be able to let myself be okay with feeling cranky and uncomfortable and all those other descriptions that sound negative but are really no more usual or regular than joy or happiness or contentment. Now, I'm smiling at myself and writing it all down. I am a work in progress...

small stone #20

heart expansion,
fresh air rushing in,
vision demands a wider, clearer view.
miraculous moment of creation.

small stone #19

my stone is a flower,
big love,
gratitude,
loving arms,
soft lips.

Small stone #17

and this is how to get through this experience;
Today is my last day...and I immediately feel so
bouyant and it helps me get to 5 pm. From here on
out every day will be my last day. Is this another
way of saying stay in the present? Playing
tricks with my mind to stay sane.

small stone #16

Fresh wet snow, wash me clean. So raw inside it hurts to think. Buddha Maitreya chant soothing balm. The intimacy of the rawness takes me back to the beginningness of my choices to be in this body. I take note of the sweetness and gentleness of this image over five decades old. We were leaning into one another.

small stone #15

3am clockwork; inner heat, outer cool.
slide left leg out from under the covers to balance out the temperatures.
a many layered 30 seconds; inner combustion, thin layer of sweat, cool relief of open air, back to sleep.
the trick is not too get too excited so I can easily fall back to sleep.