small stone #11

alright...earlier today..."noticing properly"...but unable to write about it for hours...one more "don't you remember in our training Mary, these are the things you need to remember Mary, are you still working on that?"...it took every fiber of my being from just packing up my things and leaving. I've spent 8 months with this person and every single button/issue that can be pushed is being pushed. It was interesting to watch myself and feel the intensity of wanting to leave...change...run...quit...there are times when I am willing to recognize the lessons staring me flat in my face and there are the times when I want to say, alright, I believe enough is enough and dear universe, may I please learn these lessons somewhere else, with someone else or better yet, may I simply be done with this lesson now? Thank you kind universe in advance for hearing my request!

Small stone #10

An interior moment with you, mom.
Not always the easiest relationship
And it feels like I can love you
Even more, now, fuller, unconditionally
Now that you dance in the ethers
With Dad.

small stone #9

take down the "likes", and the "comments" and the "followers" and the "friends" and the "twitters"...take it all down and come back to your heart; it's all fresh and new now...can't you see?

smallstone #8

intimate, authentic, unmasked; these are words that occupy my mind today and I contemplate the ways of integrating the actual experience of them into consciousness/being.

small stone #7

what a luxury to have the time to lie in bed and not have to rush somewhere.
what a luxury to feel the suns heat on my face and watch the dog give kitty a bath.
what a luxury to notice it all.

small stone#6

this is mindfulness:
bending head back in the shower stall feeling the hot water soak my head and clear my mind.
bending over, bending knee, grabbing shoe with both hands, pulling back the tongue, pushing the foot inside, giving it it's home for stepping out into the world.
moving hand holding cup to mouth, tasting first bursts of fresh ground french roast coffee, sliding down the back of my throat, being reminded to be present with the words that move out into the atmosphere this day.

small stone #5

it's 6 a.m., I can't not get up and sit for twenty minutes. after days of mind reeling activity, this morning I can commit to watching myself be present and know instinctively how being quiet this morning will bear itself out through the day. I am grateful to know the benefits of kindness and gentleness to myself.